But it’s also true that good things come to those who wait.
14 months ago, a simple and innocent email saying “Hi” to an old colleague made a huge impact in my life (that particular moment was actually ‘recorded’ in my previous twitter and facebook entries) .. That simple “Hi” ascended to simple walks in the park, simple dinner, simple movie dates….
And in those simple moments, I realised that this guy I’m with is such a great and amazing person.
And it doesn’t help that he’s my major crush 9 years ago.
So for the curious people out there. Yes – double confirmed. I am already taken.
It was not something that I planned nor something that I forced. I had couple of chances to be involved with someone before but it just did not happen because on those situations, I realised that I cannot be in a relationship where I am not 100% certain that ‘he is the one’. After a couple of relationships in the past which had failed and which I had learned form , I realised that I can never settle for anything less.
During our 'getting to know each other' stage, my now boyfriend and I, I definitely had questions in my head. Given the complexity of the situation I am about to face when I decide to be with him, I really had doubts if this relationship will actually work. There was even a point when I was willing to let him go.
But obviously I did not.
My life has always been an easy path. I almost always get what I want. I never exposed myself to a situation where I know that I will get hurt in the end.
But being with him turned my life around.
I know deep inside my heart that he is the guy I’ve been hoping for all these years.
I have never been so excited building a future with someone.
I have never realised that there a lot of things to change within myself.
I have never met someone who could really hurt me so bad but at the same time could make me the happiest girl.
I have never given so much of myself.
I have never been so scared of losing someone.
I have never felt so vulnerable and exposed.
I have never felt a need to fight so hard for someone besides my family.
I have never believed so much in ‘hope’ and in ‘faith’ the way that I believe them now.
And finally, I realized that those failed relationships I had in the past had something missing.
I realised that this time in my life, I am ready to be in love... I am in love.
In the very true sense of the word.
And being with him now, I know I will be the best person I hope I can ever be.